Still Here!

I am still alive! Sorry for not posting in a while, but I am back now so here I go. Recently I have removed myself from a toxic friendship. The end of the "friendship" brought me relief along with a learning experience. It has been a hard journey, filled with blessings. Last night the moment I had dreaded happened. I saw the family of this "friend". It may sound silly but I did NOT want this to happen but turns out God had other plans. Upon seeing them, my stomach dropped, my hands went cold, and my breathing quickened. I was having a mini panic attack. Yet, my panic was for nothing because they never actually saw me. I walked out of the store successfully shaken up and by the time I reached my car I was happy to close the door behind me and head home. When I turned the key and started driving away the radio played the lyrics "if our God is with us then what can stand against". At that moment I knew that God was by my side. I threw up my hand (one was on the steering wheel) in praise. In that moment my soul was at peace and I knew that God can heal any damage that humans do to us and turn our suffering into something beautiful. *Song lyrics from "Our God" by Chris Tomlin