I Run To The Cross

Another day, another struggle. We all face them just some days are harder than others. Things get mucked up and sometimes you just don't know where to go or what to do. Thinking of this stuff can get me into a tizzy. What to do, what to do, I think to myself. And then I realize I don't have all the answers - not even close. In this moment you might say I should drop to my knees and start praying. This is a splendid idea; however, I've had to find another form of prayer to work through these tizzies. For me it is running. Now I know, I know, you're probably thinking -why the heck running, doesn't it hurt and cause more pain then good. In truth, it helps me. It is a physical and mental release. When I slip on my shoes and tie the laces tight, I know I am ready to go. I run. I run fast. I run slow. I run long. It doesn't matter as long as I am running. I drop all my problems along my route and leave them there. I know God will collect them and deal with them as He wishes. Whatever He wishes to do with them is better than anything I could ever plan. By the end of the run, I feel free again. I am at peace with myself and Jesus.

Speaking the Truth

My cousin recently posted this video on youtube and I love it because it is so true. It is entitled "Sexual Healing". Luckily, I have never been faced with the situation described in the video but at the same time, some of my close friends have had to deal with it. From seeing their experiences I know it is not a pleasant experience and I don't wish it on anyone. With that being said, I think it is awesome that this young man has stepped out of the norm and made an amazing statement through his writing. I sincerely hope you will watch it.

Still Here!

I am still alive! Sorry for not posting in a while, but I am back now so here I go. Recently I have removed myself from a toxic friendship. The end of the "friendship" brought me relief along with a learning experience. It has been a hard journey, filled with blessings. Last night the moment I had dreaded happened. I saw the family of this "friend". It may sound silly but I did NOT want this to happen but turns out God had other plans. Upon seeing them, my stomach dropped, my hands went cold, and my breathing quickened. I was having a mini panic attack. Yet, my panic was for nothing because they never actually saw me. I walked out of the store successfully shaken up and by the time I reached my car I was happy to close the door behind me and head home. When I turned the key and started driving away the radio played the lyrics "if our God is with us then what can stand against". At that moment I knew that God was by my side. I threw up my hand (one was on the steering wheel) in praise. In that moment my soul was at peace and I knew that God can heal any damage that humans do to us and turn our suffering into something beautiful. *Song lyrics from "Our God" by Chris Tomlin