Today Is A Day To Be Awesome

Anyone have a recurring monster that haunts you? It is a thought, an action, a mood, that puts a black cloud over your day. It tries to ruin anything and everything that it can. I personally have one, and it is not fun. My bad mood just seems to take over the day. Today is different; today I am standing up to it. I am ready to put up a fight; I am ready to take it down. Today is my day to shine. Push over bad mood monster, you are going down.

A Fathers Love

I personally know that I am not strong enough to face this world on my own. The other night I was praying and asking God to walk with me through all the changes I have coming my way. During this time God showed me that throughout my life He has sent little helpers to be by my side. What really struck me is that He said He has sent a bit of Himself to walk with me throughout my whole life. He then showed me my Daddy. God is so good. Whenever I think about it, my Dad really is like a little part of God sent down as a gift to me. He is always there and has always been there. In all my fondest memories, he is there. In my most prominent memories, he is there. In my memory of graduation I see his proud smiling face beaming with such joy as he watched me process in. And I feel his bear hug encasing me as I gave him a huge hug and cried on his shoulder. He has always been there and shinning through him has been a piece of God. The piece that God saved just for me. The piece that no one else has because I'm keeping my Dad and not trading him for anything. He's my Dad, my little bit of God and I love him so very very much.

Over?

High school is over and I'm not sure how I feel about it yet. A lot of emphasis was placed on graduation day and now the big day has come and gone and I'm left to ponder what happened. I guess you could say it's over and I'm done but it doesn't feel like that. It sounds cliche but it really doesn't feel like it's over. The events keep playing over in my mind -my family's proud grin, walking to receive my diploma (which had two typo's :P), many hugs, and an immense outpouring of love. The day was spectacular and I don't want to leave it behind. I guess in a way I never will. My memories will keep it alive so that it will never fully be "over".

So Much Love

Hello dear readers, I greatly apologize for not posting in a while. I take full responsibility but in my defense I have been super busy. Once things calm down I will be sure to post. Since my last post many things have happened. For instance, my last day of high school occurred as well as my last high school dance as well as several graduation practices. And tomorrow -drum roll please- I graduate. I can't even believe it. I guess when I wasn't looking I grew old. Through it all there's one thing that I've realized -I am so loved. And now as a big momentous moment in my life is about to occur I can honestly say I feel so much love. The people you love and the people who love you make life special. To everyone who loves me, I thank God for having placed you in my life. I love you.